I have trouble keeping friends…they all end up leaving me. Either transferring, or graduating, or starting to work, or just cutting me off…..
Idk what I’m doing wrong - I feel like I’ve been dumped….but I guess the remaining true friends come in to fill the gap…though that statement doesn’t really help.
I give up trying to fit in, I’m just gonna go with my own flow.
I’m done, therefore, with the club.
1 Peter
1:6-9 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls. ♥ Amen.
April 25, 2000 - Jan 17, 2012
I just found out about your death from your sister’s photo on facebook…I remember when I visited your sister’s house and, even though I was an elementary student, I was amazed with the amount of love in your house. Your sister left a comment on facebook about how you brought the family together - who would’ve known it was because of you that made the family so cheerful that it left a warm impression in my heart? Praise the Lord for living in this world and bringing smiles to anyone’s face.
Rest in Peace.
The only good trait about him is that he’s funny and he plays soccer…
Why, me? I must be really boyfriend desperate.
COOL TYPE AB 8)
쪼코볼
This is a powerful testimony of a sister who is serving as an intercessory missionary at IHOP-KC. When Sarah first shared her testimony with me over dinner one evening, I was trying my hardest to respond without too much shock and awe at her story.
With a bachelors from the prestigious Columbia University in New York city, a masters from Harvard (with a full-ride scholarship) the Lord called her to the place where one really moves the true government, the place of prayer.
I hope her testimony blesses and encourages you whether you’re called to full-time intercession or the marketplace.
What are your thoughts on prayer? The biggest challenges to your own prayer life?
“How you really lucid dream: write something on your hand and constantly check it so it becomes habit, remember your dreams (just think about remembering them before going to sleep), download a lucid dream inducer off youtube and listen to it while going to sleep, keep telling yourself you will realize you are dreaming while going to sleep. You will realize you are dreaming when you check your hand in your dream and the writing is different, you will then be able to control your dreams (lucidly dreaming). worked for me on my very first try. I did have sleep paralysis for 10 sec after waking up but experienced no demon hallucinations, just waiting for my body to catch up with my brain. YOU’RE WELCOME.”
Marshall holds Barney down as Ted goes in to slap Barney. Will Ted get to use the final slap?
1. “Spend twice as much, buy half as much.”
2. “Walking 25% faster”
3. Stop being a hunchback
4. One minute of reminding yourself of your strengths and goals on a pretty card.
5. Pray about the things your are grateful for
6. Cheers to others
7. Sit in the front
8. Contribute to humanity and become a positive force!
9. Participate :( orz
10. Hangout more
Bonne Nuit
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Just came back from the vision conference, and man…it was really a blessing to go. I wasn’t radically changed, because that happened last year. I guess the three things that I was mostly blessed with is learning about discernment, healing, and domesticated faith. So, actually it was mostly about healing and re-affirmed commitments.
Prayer has been a huge focus for me ever since missions. Praying in the morning, or right before just about anything: prepare us and prepare the hearts of those we were going to meet - praying for the people we’ve met and praying to meet specific people.
I prayed to meet someone that I can share the gospel with or just make a difference in their lives. I have no idea if that happened though…and I can’t get in contact with the two people I’ve met because I didn’t get their right e-mail…
I would cry out to God, why couldn’t I just see something that I’ve prayed for, like the specifics, such as meeting a French speaking student and being able to share the Gospel. I was kind of ticked off and impatient…if this helped with my faith, how come God wouldn’t answer? I still have yet to know. My small group leader even prayed for me, but….still nothing.
However, what helped me throughout this process is how my leader met her “soulmate” because they come from a very similar background. It was amazing that she got to meet such a person, and it was because of prayer. Prayer…
During the Korea Conference, I think I’ve heard a voice…I’m not too sure because it wasn’t as clear as the Holy Spirit telling me to “just pray.” (oh yea, that’s another story to tell..before missions I was getting desperate for God’s help and answers…and during a dream I just heard this voice that was so distinct and real that I was shocked…) It was a feeling of “I’m coming.” I don’t know if that was my subconscious telling me this, trying to convince myself that I got an answer…but that’s the only response I got.
Anyway, you know what I’m saying…it was all about prayer. And during this Vision conference, I learned that prayer to discern what God wants desires is crucial. I really wanted a spiritual gift because it was cool and it would help others. Yet my small group friend warned me that the sole purpose of the gift is to give glory to God. There are many people who abuse their gifts and take pride in “THEIR” gifts. It is a powerful gift, but it must not be used for selfish purposes. I wanted to go to an IHOP conference because of all the miracles I’ve heard regarding spiritual gifts, but I need to pray about whether or not God wants me to go and if it was my time to receive the gift.
Another thing I’ve learned about prayer is that when you pray to confess your sins but you don’t improve…it’s because you’re most likely doing it for yourself. I’m not too clear about this… But, I do know that Jesus is with you when there’s another person there. So, having an accountability partner helps tremendously with healing. Being able to share it, and have someone to give you tips and keep you in check will definitely help you with your spiritual growth. They are there to help with your healing.
I need my “soulmate” because after missions, I basically died. My religious discipline totally feathered away, because I was just so exhausted from the radical difference change in pace. My faith became “domesticated” and I went back to my old habits and started doubting God again. I didn’t want to pray because I had to pray - I felt that was too insincere. I didn’t want to pray because if Atheists can do it in life, then I must be doing something wrong, not God. I didn’t want to do QT because I felt the bible didn’t have anything else to offer. I didn’t want to go to church because I couldn’t find my home church. I didn’t want to go witnessing because I was too ashamed.
During Vision, I cried out to the Lord saying I was so disappointed with prayer and where I stood in life. I prayed that I didn’t even want to pray. Yet, at the same time, I felt sorry for disgracing God. All these emotions poured out for a moment and snot was coming down my nose LOL. Then right after, I shared my true feelings with a friend (who later said she wanted a soulmate..which totally shocked me, but I understand…her world ain’t my world :/ )
The speaker, Pastor Peter Ahn, said that in order for us to not fall back into that “domesticated faith” phase again, we must also take steps. We must announce on twitter or FB on our progress and of God’s glory. We should also write in our journals to keep us in check.
After Vision, I left with odd feelings. Let’s just say I’m just calm right now and felt really blessed to have met the NYU small group and to listen to so many good speakers. At the same time, I’m still wondering why God has not answered my prayers and what difference can God make in success…Atheists have gone far in life.
Random idea though - maybe it’s because of intercessory prayers. Just as how I haven’t prepared myself and others for Vision, I still felt really blessed to go. Although, the $200 is bugging me still. Anyway, what I’m saying is that even my friend who didn’t really prepare herself for Vision through prayer felt really blessed too and she came from California.
I dunno…time will tell…it’s all in God’s hands. I’ve just re-committed to reading the bible and praying more again.
And tumblr became my journal :P
